Crazy train

I've been riding the crazy train the past few weeks and I am not sure if it's MY train that's crazy or if I am on someone else's crazy train. I am going with latter because if unclear, why not blame someone else? Mr. Hilarious has always joked that I attract crazy people. He even suspects he might be crazy and not know it since the vast majority of my friends are crazy. Most aren't my real friends, but I keep them around for entertainment value. If I didn't open myself up to these crazy people, I would be much more boring at dinner parties. But with a chronic liar who was so smart mensa asked her join, but was too hung over to sign papers, there is always a great story. I know a woman who runs thirty miles a week just so she can use the child watch at the gym and get a break from her kids. Wait that's me, but I never said I wasn't a little crazy. I'm just not as crazy as the woman who included her pot growing room on the tour of her home during a playdate, or a woman who had an affair, got pregnant, went back to husband and they raised the baby like the affair never happened. Really, I know these people. They are living amoung us in sububia. And really they are great, funny people, 90% of the time.
But sometimes, the drama is too much and I have to get off the train. Lately, I've been feeling less social and wondering if I need to simplify. I already decluttered the whole house, and now may be the best time to declutter my social time. People ask me for my time and I feel guilty saying no. So I make room for them and run out of time for the people I care about most. I talk on the phone way too much. I talk way too much. This month, I am going to practice the art of silence. I am going to use the phone for no longer than ten minutes at a time. I will ask three questions before talking about myself. I will take one run a week alone. I don't even know if silence is better than talking, but I hope it will be less stress and more time with my family. I want to be a good friend to people, but I can't be a good friend to so many people that I am not a good friend to my family and to myself.